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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Song

KELLY CLARKSON
"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

Posted at 06:18 pm by elektra_rose
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

Bleh...

Aah-choo!!Excuse me.Now wat was I goin to say?......ya.Will someone pls pls explain to me why Im suffering from a cold wen the its friggin 44 degrees outside??Its so not funny.I mean,the one thing(the only thing) I like bout Delhi summers is that at least they r cold-free.Or so I thot.Im losing out on both ends here!!I cant even sleep properly.I usually sleep either on my left or rt side.No prizes for guessing wat happens next!!The mucus(the only green thing that I hate) starts collecting on one side of my nostrils.Eww.Yuck.Its the height of discomfort,believe u me!!Effin viruses,find some other body to invade!!

And its not just that.Theres more that Im pissed off bout!!Now,I was planning to visit my college library during these hols.But decided against it.The reasons are 3-fold.Firstly, Delhi's heat is not to be underestimated.Never!Or u just might end up dead. Then,the brain fever thing.Mennigocemia.Or watever.Its starting to turn into an epidemic.A news channel clearly said that one shud avoid moving in crowded areas.And Ive never been much of a risk-taker....Last and most important.The rapes.Ill tell u if a girl can be lifted off a fuckin main road into a car,anything can happen anywhere,anytime.Just wen I thot Delhi cudnt get worse.....Which means that Im gonna miss out on Batman Begins.Just like I missed out on Elektra. Im gonna miss all the summer flicks.Most of bollywood is crap,altho Dus looks slick.

So u see.Lifes pretty boring these days.Thank god for TV.The Contender finale is on May 25th.Caesars Place,Las Vegas.I hope Peter Manfredo Jr wins.No use cuz its already happ. in the US.Did u know that The Apprentice 3 began on 20th January there?And its gonna hit Star World on 20th May ie tomorrow.A time lag of 4 months.The Simple Life 3 has wrapped up there and Simple Life 2 hasnt even screened here!!Did I mention how much that suxx??Life is so unfair.

Count yr blessings,dear.At least Growing Up Gotti Season 2 is coming up.Rt after season 1 ends!!That series has given me a role model-Victoria and a new obsession- John Agnello Gotti (named after his grandfather,the notorious Italian mob-boss).And Ive a feeling that One Tree Hill will be interesting.Amen.Star world's def better than Zee Cafe (formerly Zee English) which keeps playing old reruns of Six Feet Under and The Sopranos.Along wt some 10 yrs old,ancient series like ER and She spies. And they dont know how to promote anything!!Zee suxx at promotions.It really does.They better take a leaf out of Star or Sony's book.Well,theres always Zoom wen Star World is found lacking.God is great.

Couch potato wt a running nose.Thats wat I am!!Presently.

Posted at 03:37 am by elektra_rose
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

The Sphinx Without A Secret

The problem wt her is that she is a collector.She collects many things but mainly people.Yes - friends,relatives, crushes,celebs,idols people to be discarded once they've served their purpose.Use and Throw.Cut and Dried.Then they are preserved forever in her memories, prisoners in the hell of her mind,to be thought of again and again but not actually seen or met.Once the persons gone hes gone n theres no use calling out his name.Peculiar her way of thinking.But then she really did live in an intellectual fantasy world.Her grip on reality was weak.Shed rather live in her dream world where everything happens as per her whims and fancies than the marauding real world which did not even have the time to notice her,let alone be ruled by her dictates.

No,that world is too harsh for her.She can barely endure it for it judges her to be of no or negligible significance.And try hard as she might but she knows that she cud never achieve as much importance as she did in her own world for there she ruled supreme. She was ready for the world,she wanted no she craved responsibility but there must be a corresponding reward too.She did not want to waste her time in petty tasks without any tangible benefits.The last thing that she wanted was to be taken for granted.

She had the ambition,the potential but nothing ever came out of it for she did not have the support,the guidance.She depended on herself for everything but she was weary and tired and theres only so much that a person can do for itself.She was disillusioned. She was in a vicious circle and she did not know how to break out of it.Or rather she did but she preferred staying in thebad situation than doing something about it bcuz she cant fail and she has herself to answer to.She has herself to look up to,she was her own heroine,guide,role model all rolled into one.

But in the midst of juggling so many roles,she was breaking up inside.The way a house comes down,brick by brick.. N thats why she can never be satisfied.Shes too absorbed in the whole process,in counting her acquisitions.She doesnt realise that as long as shes collecting she can never stop and see what she wants.She cannot spend that much time.Cuz she must move on...she must make further additions to her collection. But how much is too much?Can she really go on all her life like this?

Posted at 11:14 am by elektra_rose
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Saturday, May 07, 2005

The First Entry

So this is my first entry in this blog.I like stating the obvious.Woo!!3 cheers for me.

I like to think of myself as an important person.Im delusioned.No1 really cares about me.Which is fair given that Im a selfish self obsessed bitch.But I want to share my opinions wt others and be influenced by theirs in turn.Hence the blog.Wanna know more then see the profile section.

So wat else.Ya do visit and comment.Ur esteemed contribution will be most most valuable.Actually I just want my xcounter log to show a 1000.I dont care if u visit my blog even in yr sleep!!Well thats it for now.*waves bye.

Posted at 03:08 am by elektra_rose
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